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Tuesday, December 02, 2008

THE GREEN-EYED MONSTER
Until Alexa came along, I never realized how much jealousy lurked inside me. I'd be the first one to hand over my coat if you were freezing or to give you shoes or whatever. I'll never be rich because I like to give stuff too much. But that only goes so far. It does NOT apply to the granddaughter I've waited decades on.

I love seeing how much her Poppy loves her too. I'm okay sharing her with her great-grandparents, and I'm thrilled they love her too, but I still hover as close as I can so I can see her face. But this week a new event occurred in her young life. Donna had to go back to work. Alexa is now in daycare. The thought of some STRANGERS getting to rock her, to feed her, to hear her coo is about to do me in. LOL I told Donna I've been praying someone at the daycare will fall in love with her and care for her like I would. And I do pray for that because I love her and want her cherished. But oh the thought that someone else gets to see that smile and hear that little chuckle she's just learning to make sure hurts!

If I thought it would work, I'd rent an office near Donna's place of employment, set up a crib and toys and a recliner for me to work and I'd write when she takes her nap! LOL But I know I'm being silly. She's going to be fine. I'm just not so sure about me! So that's my struggle for December. You have anything you're struggling with?

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Colleen Coble  
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At 8:17 AM, Blogger Lisa Jordan said...

C,

I've been a childcare provider for over 10 years and totally understand your anxiety. I've seen it countless times. Your children and grandchildren become "my" children for 8-10 hours a day. I have a very low turnover rate, so I've had many children from infancy until they enter kindergarten. That's when the water works start for me...letting them go. Please know your little darling is in good hands. It's so easy to fall in love with children. They have such innocence and thirst for knowledge.

A hint: the quickest way to get on the bad side of your granddaughter's childcare provider is to call her a babysitter. LOL! I'm not a babysitter. Babysitters don't go to college for early childhood education degrees. :-)

If you had an office and cared for your little angel at the same time, I'm so sure you wouldn't get any work done! :)

 
At 8:21 AM, Blogger Colleen Coble said...

That's it exactly, Lisa! If I got no work done, how would I buy her stuff? LOL Do you know she owns every outfit for sale at Babies R Us? LOL

Your note was very comforting. Thanks!

 
At 11:11 AM, Blogger Kristin said...

Think about how her mother must feel! Wow, that's hard to have to go back to work, especially on what little sleep a new mommy has. She'll choose a fabulous place, a mommy can tell! And you can't AFFORD to watch Alexa everyday, you'd be broke and your local baby store would be empty.

 
At 12:42 PM, Blogger Jaime said...

Awww! That little gal will be impossible NOT to fall in love with. Any caregiver will melt in her presence!!

However, I think my mom must relate to you because she has already made it VERY clear she WILL be the day care when my time comes and my baby needs one. LOL. No arguing with mom! The law has been laid down!!

 
At 2:27 PM, Blogger photoqueen said...

Alexa is darling, and I'm sure nobody will take her grandma's place! (But if it helps, every time my mom sees my 1-year-old daughter, she reminds her who loves her most...and of course, that's her, she says!)

Just wanted to tell you, also, that I finished reading Lonestar Sanctuary over the weekend. Loved it. Great book!

 
At 2:35 PM, Blogger Ane Mulligan said...

Colleen, what Photoqueen said is absolutely right. No person will ever replace Grammy! A grandmother is the most wonderful person in the world to grnadkids. You love so absolutely and unconditionally.

As parents, we were responsible for our kids behavior. Not so as grandparents. :D We also know that the not-so-perfect behavior that drives parents mad is merely children being children. :D

No wonder kids love their grandparents so much! :D After all, it's our JOB to spoil them! LOL at least with love.

 
At 6:15 PM, Blogger Colleen Coble said...

You all are so comforting! And I saw Alexa this afternoon and she's darling and smiling and seems to be suffering no ill effects. But I'm still jealous. LOL

Glad you liked Lonestar Sanctuary, photoqueen!

 
At 11:50 AM, Blogger Deena said...

My struggle isn't having to let go of someone precious....it's wanting to let go of someone hurtful.

Colleen, do everything you can to support your kids in raising Alexa in a godly and Christlike manner. Pray for her even now to be a godly young woman and never, ever stop praying that over her.

She'll be fine, 'cause gramma prays:-)

 
At 1:03 AM, Blogger Janice Thompson said...

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At 1:05 AM, Blogger Janice Thompson said...

Colleen, it's funny you should post this. I just moved into a house with my daughter and her two-year-old. Chaos reigns! I'm hardly able to get any writing done. That whole, "I'll put in a crib and watch the baby while I write books" thing is an illusion, trust me! Want the truth? You'll put in a crib, watch the baby, feed the baby, diaper the baby, coddle the baby when she cries, eventually end up in tears, yourself (because your editor is calling wondering where the book is) and only write ten words per day for the rest of your writing career. Ask me how I know. . .

Seriously, I've learned that it's nearly impossible to balance writing and a baby. BUT. . .if you get the writing done (and you will, as long as she's in daycare) you can spend ALL of your free time with her, giving her all the love she needs!

 

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