THE GREEN-EYED MONSTER
Until Alexa came along, I never realized how much jealousy lurked inside me. I'd be the first one to hand over my coat if you were freezing or to give you shoes or whatever. I'll never be rich because I like to give stuff too much. But that only goes so far. It does NOT apply to the granddaughter I've waited decades on.
I love seeing how much her Poppy loves her too. I'm okay sharing her with her great-grandparents, and I'm thrilled they love her too, but I still hover as close as I can so I can see her face. But this week a new event occurred in her young life. Donna had to go back to work. Alexa is now in daycare. The thought of some STRANGERS getting to rock her, to feed her, to hear her coo is about to do me in. LOL I told Donna I've been praying someone at the daycare will fall in love with her and care for her like I would. And I do pray for that because I love her and want her cherished. But oh the thought that someone else gets to see that smile and hear that little chuckle she's just learning to make sure hurts!
If I thought it would work, I'd rent an office near Donna's place of employment, set up a crib and toys and a recliner for me to work and I'd write when she takes her nap! LOL But I know I'm being silly. She's going to be fine. I'm just not so sure about me! So that's my struggle for December. You have anything you're struggling with?
Labels: daycare, grandparenting, Jealousy